Am I still technically cled as a Cynic and what is your opinion?

First of all you are young & it is wonderful that you have a great attitude towards your future! I am so sorry that you had to experience such awful things at any age! I was a victim of abuse & decided to get out of it, let alone have my children experience it with me. I am not judging your mom by any means, but wish that she would have been stronger for you. Please do not blame God for not pulling you & your mom out of it. It wasn't his fault. I will pray for you in hopes that your life will get better. I am proud of you! May God continue to watch over you & bless you.